Last fall was a major life change for me, leaving a job after 16 years. For the first time ever, I was unemployed. And instead of providing, helping, doing, I was on the other side. It was a scary, uncertain future.
For a girl with a slight case of OCD, and one who surely likes to be in charge and control, not having a job was like setting out in a boat on choppy waters. For awhile, I didn't know where I'd end up and it felt like I'd been abandoned.
Our finances took a hefty ding and, at times, I felt like God let us down. Hadn't we suffered enough on this earth? Why must we struggle again so soon? How were we ever going to manage?
Eventually, with my hubby's loving reminders, I let go and just trusted God.
The past year hasn't been easy. There have been huge adjustments, changes, of figuring out who I am in a new career, and a shifting of priorities. Not that we ever lived extravagantly, but we lived in excess. Now, we've learned that less really is more. There's a tremendous difference in needs versus want, something the kids have been somewhat less eager to learn at times.
“Too many people spend money they haven’t earned,
to buy things they don’t want, to impress people they don’t like.”
~ Will Rogers
~ Will Rogers
Change has helped us to refocus and reminded that God is in control.
What's been wonderful is that somehow, every need, every time, God has provided, often to the penny. There's been unexpected blessings and many lessons along the way. What we know, no matter what, is that we can trust God with our tomorrows - and our todays.
We may not have a lot but we certainly have all we need.